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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 05:47

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

All the time i was locked up.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She found it foreign!.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He knew the spot.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I waited trembling.

It was going to be , some day.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Why are there so many girls and not enough boys to follow?

Why did i forgive my father ?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I will be 64.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But it wasn’t much.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was 9 years of age.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Who then, do I blame.?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My life is so biszare .

We all went to grammer schools

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Ive learnt so much.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And i lived it daily.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She married twice! .

Comes on , in middle age.

I think the readers, may guess!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

So whats the point in blame.

She was in good health!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im still living with it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

This is soul school!.

Put me off passion for life!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was scared of men, in general

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

When she asked me how she looked .

(And it was in our own minds.)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I could never make a relationship work though!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

One cannot live in the past .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But, we were locked up after school.

But ive been too sick for many years..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Especially a lifetime of it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I write beautiful poetry .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was seconnd youngest,

I couldn’t, believe it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Was to survive, this bastard.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She loved him until the end.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I said to her

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We were not on the streets..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So, i spoilt her more .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My family never makes their pension either.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I have no regrets .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Would this be the day?

He resisted the act ,that day.

As i do to all so called friends.?

What did i know ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I was very sick at this time too.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I don,t even have a pension.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She wouldn,t have been !

I never cut or harmed myself..